Saturday, January 29, 2011

Back to Reality!

Tomorrow morning - very early, we head home. Back to the real world (which is a good place to be) and back to the cold (which is not so great a place to be).


We have had a lovely time! The girls have enjoyed it and they will be a little shocked when we get back to our schedule.
Every time we go some place with them AND return with them our relationship grows. It is wonderful and at the same time very sad. I don't notice it until we come home and I wonder do they think we would leave them?? I don't know? I hope not but I think there is always that doubt in the back of their minds- especially Emma and Ellie.


A couple months ago I received reports from Ch*na and one of them spoke about when they were abandoned. The parents were separated and the girls were with Dad. The Mom had the younger sister living with her. One day they went to have dinner with their Mom. It was a nice big dinner and after that they went on a bus ride to the city...


I think I'm gonna throw up... I find it so upsetting. Can we ever undo what has been done? Honestly only by the grace of God can these children be healed of the pain from their past.


Ellie tells us that neither the birth Mom or the foster Mom liked Emma... How can children so young know that and understand that... heartbreaking...


When they were with their birth family- Emma was supposed to babysit the youngest child but she didn't do a good job and she hit the baby. If you know Emma, you will know that her cognitive/maturity level was probably similar to the baby's. This was something she was not capable of doing. She was probably about 4-5 yrs old at the time.


I wonder how the younger sister is doing? 


We do not intent to look for her- God has not guided us in that direction and we feel that there may be many unresolved feelings regarding her - after all, in their (Emma and Ellie's) eyes she was the one they kept...


Right now we need to love the children the Lord has blessed us with and work to bring home those he has guided us too...



Whats wrong with this picture? 
Oops- Ellie put on Anna's PJ's!


Okay, that looks much better!

7 comments:

KLM said...

haha! does Ellie have on Anna's?! so funny!

Wright Family said...

Jerry and I are also heading home tomorrow, from our first week away in 25 years....had a lovely time, but I love my real life

Annie said...

Oh Jean, my heart breaks for your sweet girls and all the other precious ones out there with similar stories! It is so healing that they can tell you their stories.

I am glad you have had so much fun!! Getting back to reality and a schedule can be VERY hard:)

"Are These Kids All Yours?" said...

I think I would be sick too..... :(

Will be praying for your transition home. SOOO Glad you had time away. Praying as you prepare to add more children to your home. For those transitions....for the timing....the trip.....the transitions.....the LOVE THAT GOD WILL GIVE for it all to work out according to HIS GRACE!

Karen said...

Jean, I still, after 8 years, get sick when I think about our girls, sisters too, and what happened to them. They lived with their mom and "new daddy" and their older brother "went away" and then momma had a new baby brother. She took them on a train ride and they all got off...but mom left them by the railroad tracks and according to witnesses on the train ran away into a crowd. Out little Abby who was about 9 months crawled on the tracks and the train didn't see her and hit her which is why she is missing a foot. Cheyenne witnessed it - she was 4 1/2. I have read a couple books about the moms in China and how they could do this. It has helped some...but this momma cannot even imagine. Praying for your transition...new children...and your whole family.
Karen in Arkansas

Adeye said...

Oh my! My heart aches for your sweet little girls, friend. NO CHILD should EVER have to go through what they have endured. Never. Breaks my heart.

The pics are absolutely precious! How beautiful they are.

Holly said...

What a truly heartbreaking story. It boggles the mind, doesn't it? But praise the Lord that He had a different plan for those sweet girls! I love the matching jammies!!